I miss my Kutchi..

I miss Kutchi.. so much.. I love him so much:-((

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hope that you will like all my photos and maybe get to know me more and my family and how loner I was in Cebu!

Yes, I'm a loner.. I prefer to be alone sometimes.. even when traveling.. coz sometimes when I remember something.. my companion will not understand if he/she see me have tears in my eyes.. (gee dramatic person huh?)

You will see in my slides my photos with my family, my bestfriends since Elementary up to this date.. (yup more than 10 years, I think we are 20 years friends already), also you will see the photo of me and my crush Mika Immonen, my dog Kutchi.. God I miss him so much.. I love you Kutchi:-(( and the photos taken when I was in college.. Through the years nothing has change in me... except that I gained more weight.. just see for urself..

I love you TNR.. I wish there will be time that you will love me too.. and if there's none.. I wish you well and hope that you find that woman who will love you truly and make you happy.. I love you.. I hope and pray for myself someday.. a single man will feel the same for me.. someone who will be brave not to let me go and make me his only love..coz that's what he gonna be to me.. only love and only one man I will love for the rest of my life..

Good luck all to those men and women who are still in search for their better half like me.. who are hopeless romantic like me.. Let's all pray ONE DAY, GOD WILL GIVE US THAT ONE PERFECT DAY, PERFECT MOMENT TO SAY.. I'VE FOUND THE PERFECT MAN DESPITE OF HIS IMPERFECTION.. A PERFECT MAN WHO IS NOT PERFECT BUT PERFECT FOR THE LOVE THAT HE CAN GIVE US.. FOR BEING THE MAN WE NEED HIM TO BE AND THE MAN WE WANTED TO HAVE IN EACH OF OUR LIVES.. A PERFECT MAN I WILL MEET AT THE ALTAR TO EXCHANGE I DO AND GIVE MY VOW FOREVER WITH HIM..

I'm looking forward to get married someday.. and say these things as part of my VOW for my HUSBAND-TO-BE..(I guess I'm crazy for this) I want a PERSONALIZE VOW in my wedding..;-) like this..

FROM THIS MOMENT ON, I WILL NOT ONLY PROMISE YOU BUT I WILL DO LOVE YOU FOREVER, IF THERE'S NO FOREVER..LET MY LIFE BE YOUR WITNESS THAT I'M GOING TO LOVE YOU..BE WITH YOU AT ANY TIME YOU WILL NEED ME, TO SHARE MY LIFE WITH YOU..EVERY DAY THAT I'M ALIVE LOVING YOU WILL ALWAYS BE THE BEST THING THAT EVER HAPPENED TO ME.. I WILL NEVER GET TIRED OF LOVING YOU AND SERVE YOU IN ALL THE TIME THAT WE ARE TOGETHER.. I WILL ALWAYS BE FAITHFUL AND UNDERSTANDING PERSON AND FRIEND..AND BETTER HALF FOR YOU.. I LOVE YOU..
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To everyone,

JUST CONTINUE LOVING and stay in love..:-) my life is little bit boring right now.. I hope to find my ONE GREAT LOVE someday..

Nothing..

I just want to say.. I LOVE YOU.. :-)

Thank You LORD...

In the past two weeks, I was sick, I had this terrible headache and dizziness.. I seek different doctors, one said its VERTIGO, the other might be CEREBELLAR MASSES.. coz while I have this headache and dizziness.. I'm like those drunken people who can't balance themselves..(even though I can walk.. it feels like everything is moving or I am swinging) gee.. I get scared on the last findings coz if that's the diagnosis.. in the future can't walk, talk or move my muscles or move my body whenever I want to.. I underwent CT scan and got the result last Saturday.. its UNREMARKABLE PLAIN AND CONTRAST CT SCAN OF THE HEAD.. and THANK GOD, its negative for any masses.. Thank you Lord.. Prayer is very powerful.. I think I did pray for everyone and for my family, TNR, my friends, and MIKA before I get the result.. hehe.. its like saying GOODBYE in PRAYER.. I think my love for Him and TNR is very strong that I wanted to live more and do more in my life and also want to share that with one particular person that my heart want.. Thank you Lord.. You never fail to give your care to me.. Please guide me in everything that I do.. and I guess.. the image of nuns I always see everywhere I go.. symbolizes that You're there to remind me that everything will be all right.. Yes, everywhere I go.. even when I was in Cebu and in unexpected places like bus or jeepney.. I see a nun! Yes, I even sit next to one Sister last Thursday (May 28, 2009) in the bus, just after my CT Scan procedure.. I'm sitting there and smiling.. talking to myself or to Him? Saying, "God what is this again? I'm sitting next to her? A NUN? I don't hate nuns, I LOVE THEM.. but please DONT TELL ME YOU WANT ME TO BE LIKE THEM.. I'm torn..:-)) coz I'm in love to a man and you know that.. and I hate myself for choosing the man I love than accept this PREMONITION You keep showing me..hehe.. Love you Lord.. so I asked the nun what congregation she belong to.. they called it Augustinian.. Hmm.. I knew some priests from St. Augustine in Tagaytay.. Hmm.. are they brothers and Sisters like the Salesian Priests of Don Bosco and the Salesian Sisters of Don Bosco or FMA/the Daughters of Mary Help of Christians.. I did not ask more questions coz I'm shy.. coz I like to ask her again.. what is their procedure in accepting new ASPIRANTS.. I smiled, in my mind this nun might think that this woman is kinda lost and need help? Gee.. So in the past two weeks.. everything in me is in a limbo or maybe in a roller coaster.. just the same as to what I felt when I was sick.. I don't want to feel that again..

Well, the neuro just stick to the idea that what I felt is maybe because of my ear.. and that caused VERTIGO.. Err.. I don't want to feel that feeling again.. (though I was sick, I did not lose weight.. yep.. coz I don't have problem with my organ for taste.. hehe.. my taste buds worked so well.. and I gained weight from eating and just resting by sleeping almost all day!!!) Eew..

Well I'm back to work anytime this week.. but the dizziness is still the same.. May God guide me and give me strength to be able to perform well in my job..

Thank you for reading.. I hope I did not scare you here.. don't worry.. I AM FINE.. love you.. I'm looking forward to do more and find good job abroad someday.. coz I know He will give that to me too..:-)

I love you Lord..

To everyone, I AM FINE.. Don't worry.. and I look forward and feel exciting to meet Mika again.. Hmm.. I hope so.. but I dont know when.. Anyways, I'm fine.. and THANK YOU for your prayers..

Thank you for reading.. love you and miss you TNR.. I wish we can be together.. gee.. (red face) naa.. IMPOSSIBLE.. I miss Mika too:-) Take care Sir Mika! Miss you po!

God bless us all! Muah!