MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!

Hi Everyone!


Well, it's been awhile haven't posted anything here.. well, to tell you what's happening to me here.. well, I'M SURVIVING (somehow)..


Also I need to move out from the room I'm renting now, I don't like it there anymore and Thank God, He was so nice to show me right away a place for me.. close to CHURCH, SUPERMARKET, WET MARKET, JOLIBEE, POST OFFICE.. and still one ride to my work..


I've completed the nine night mass here! I wish and pray that God will help me find a good job abroad, (if no one can help me on that.. I hope He help me pass in agencies I will try apply for decent job, and hope and pray that is with nice&kind&fair employer.. and by the way, I have funny experience, but also an answered prayer again.. everytime I hear priest read the Gospel, in my mind I said.. when can I try read the Gospel for the Holy Eucharist.. last night, the nuns don't have anyone to read for them..as narrator to a short tableu, I thought its going to be the introduction for the Christmas Mass.. but guess what? It is the Gospel!!!! I did read the Gospel for everyone! I am the narrator of the Gospel..! I love you Lord! I think that's really something.. a GIFT for me this CHRISTMAS coz He knew I'm going through a lot of trials right now.. heartaches and pains.. and He knew I won't get a lot of Christmas presents so He gave me the BEST OF ALL.. to narrate Mary's giving birth to Jesus and that's in the Gospel which supposed to be the Priest will read it for everyone but I did! I love you Lord Jesus Christ! Tears dropped in my eyes again.. coz I know I have a lot of questions to Him and in Time He will reveal the answers to me.. just not now.. not yet.. God have a big plan for me.. but He always show to me my PREMONITION! THE NUNS! I thought since I'm on holiday now.. I won't see any nuns anymore because I am always with them when I'm at work.. but to my surprise, today, this morning, I visit a mall near my place, I said, I hope there's no nuns here.. but just when I got out of the Exit door of the mall, there are three nuns right in front of me:-)) I said, this is crazy, I hope its just a co-incident.. and not like God is sending me a message.. "This is how I want you to become.." but Lord, "I'm in Love!!! What can I do?" (coz He knew I want to become a nun someday.. but because I've fallen in love to a man, I've forget that plan to enter a congregation.. did not even want to join anymore.. I'M SORRY..)

Well, that's all for now.. Thank you all and hope you have a great Christmas, a prosperous New Year and wonderful life ahead for each one of us here! Take care and God bless us all!

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

SANA...

Bakit ganito.. mahal ko talaga siya.. pero hindi ko magawang kalimutan ang nararamdaman ko para sa kanya.. sinubukan ko pero hindi ko magawang alisin..

Sana makalimutan ko rin ang nararamdaman kong ito.. kasi kahit ginagawa ko ito.. nasasaktan ako kapag naiisip ko na darating ang araw talagang magkakalayo kami bilang magkaibigan dahil maaaring makatagpo siya ng babaeng mamahalin at hindi iyon imposible dahil binata siya..

Sana.. makalimutan ko ang nararamandaman ko para sa kanya.. nasasaktan na kasi ako..

A Fan Meets Mika Immonen

This is a disaster yet a remarkable day for me..

REMARKABLE day for me.. he said.. "You've made it." I only say YES..? (but SORRY the truth is I didn't really make it.. he's finish on his match when I arrived

Tonight I realize that there are really dreams and wishes that can come true.. I had alot.. and yet I still dont believe them.. that some of my wishes came true.. and one of them is to meet Mika in person or to really just watch him in action.. I'm going to do that next time.. when I have all the time to just watch him play pool..

Take care and good luck Mika.. I hope you'll keep yourself humble and focused to what you loved doing. THANK YOU for your time..

Thank you for reading..

I will always cherish this very remarkable day in my life.. added to my precious moments.. GOD THANK YOU.. You're always great in giving me what I want.. It takes time but it's worth the wait..

GOD.. THANK YOU AND I LOVE YOU.. I love you for being patient and so loving to me.. even you know I've not been so good to You.. GOD THANK YOU.. THANK YOU for this day and forward yet to unfold..what are other surprises await for me? I DON'T KNOW.. but THANK YOU..

THANK YOU MIKA IMMONEN.. Good luck in all your life endeavors.. may you be safe and healthy at all times:-) Take care.. again, THANK YOU! And ADVANCE HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!

THANK YOU! Until the time we meet again!

ANOTHER DAY

Another day.. wala lang.. single pa din.. hehehe..

I hope you are all doing fine! Sir Mika, take care!

L'ABITUDINE

Can you please help me.. TRY TO TRANSLATE L'ABITUDINE TO ME? What is the story behind the lyrics of this song?




just write it as comment.. THANKS!

I DONT WANT TO MISS A THING

When I saw the movie Armageddon, it really made me so sad and also inspired, sad because in real life.. there are people who really sacrificed their lives for other people.. and that sacrificed inspired me for doing more good and really extend help in my own little ways.. also, I like this song because of TNR (again???!) YES.. why because IF ONLY I COULD.. I like to see him always.. I like to watch him when he sleep and like to see him first thing in the morning I wake up.. but then, in real, it's not like that.. he's a single man.. we are friends but he's looking for that someone who is like his ex.. WHO CAN'T BE ME.. I cry when I hear this because in my mind, I ask when can I have that someone who is just really for me.. and I don't need to guess just what he feel for me..or always wish that I can do this thing to him.. or wish that I can be with him for some time.. maybe I will need to sacrifice something just for him to believe that I am TRUE and HONEST to what I feel for him.. I wish I can tell him..that if there's anything I can do to be there for you.. that's just to say that I DON'T WANT TO MISS A THING in your life, I WILL ALWAYS BE HERE at all times..(I wish to be..... I wish to..)

BUY ME A ROSE.. PLEASE?

Well, as a token of friendship, or token for just feeling of maybe.. gratitude?

SING THIS TO ME... PLEASE:-)

Can you sing this to me?





I love this song because of the love that it sends to me everytime I hear it on radio or to my own collection of music..

I wish to still find love that's true and for keeps.. I'll wait for that to come..

THROUGH THE YEARS

TNR

I like to remember how things started but I guess my memory is fading the same as how my memory of you.. together as friends in this unique friendship.. We've been through a lot of fight like lovers but we're not..:-)), we try not to hurt each other's feelings but circumstances that come into our lives seems want to show that we need to fight FORCES OF NATURE..

We try to keep our communication even we're miles away, we email, calling me in my mobile, post cards and mails by snail mail.. now I think things have changed.. I don't know if that's just because of what my brain is telling me or what I'm feeling for the moment..

But did you know that as the time or the duration of knowing you sometimes helped me learn something but sometimes it also mean that I can't have you..

You're there to listen, to care, to understand, to cheer me up.. just like how I am always there when you need help.. in my own little ways to show you I care, I'm listening, I understand you.. and that I'M ALWAYS HERE for you.. then I realize that I'm also falling for you to things that you do.. there's just a problem.. its one way.. and there's things we need to consider.. requirements that somehow I won't be able to give you..and I know everything from the very start.. sometimes, what you do is different from what comes out to your mouth.. I get confused..

Friends here told me to forget you.. but my brain is fighting for you.. you are also my friend.. and when I give to you my friendship.. I didn't asked you for anything in return.. just PURE FRIENDSHIP.. but now.. my heart and brain are in trouble because it's desiring you.. not for fun or fling.. something for lifetime.. and I knew to myself I'm sure about it.. but.. I guess.. I just need to be thankful that we've met.. I had you for a friend..

Through the years of knowing you.. THANK YOU.. for sharing your life as one good friend I am always proud to have and tell everyone that YOU'RE DIFFERENT and RESPECTED me to what I want.. ACCEPTED me to who I am..

I LOVE YOU.. sometimes I want to scream that loud to your face, and since you are MILES AWAY from me, I like to tell the water in Manila Bay that I love someone, can you send my message to him that I TRULY LOVE HIM? but I hope and pray.. this will just end soon.. then I can act NORMAL again to you.. I wish I can go somewhere quiet and don't need to think about you.. but every time I do that.. I FAILED.. especially when you call me and then ask for help..

Now, I need to just pray this will end and pray for you to find that woman you want.. my life won't be the same anymore when you're gone.. I hope I CAN..

Low, tired..

Wow, its like this going to be my simple diary online..

Nothing.. I just feel sad today for things that my feelings making me feel at this very moment for that someone I truly love.. unfortunately its negative and hurting me a lot.. or maybe I miss to hear from that person? I don't know.. I know I shouldn't feel this way..to a FRIEND.. he have no time for me anymore.. maybe he found new GF or someone he is interested now..

I am just a friend.. his friend.. who is always there for him.. now things are different.. and I can feel it.. he have changed..

God help me..

I hope that I can forget this feelings I have for him..to a friend not meant for me..:-((

My Funny Story

Here's a thing.. I dont know about BILLIARD..not a thing.. I know only stick, table and balls:-))

I joined this group of an International Player of Pool, then I decided to add an id which I thought was id also of a fan.. there come a time.. this id approved my add to my list in YM.. then when there's time that this id come online, I say Hi and let this person know how I was thankful for adding me to his list..and again.. admit that I dont know much about billiard and also how I feel to that International Player.. I said.. I have a big crush to him and I wish to see him in action and I would like to join them if there's a chance they will see him play again (here in the Philippines), then this man said.. who's him.. I am.. MIKA.. in my mind big letters of M-I-K-A.. I-M-M-O-N-E-N.. I go.. WHAATT? Gee, as I was reading our chat there.. I'm going crazy already:-)) coz I did a thing more than confessing to a PRIEST.. WHAAT??? then its history..

I told about this to his other fan who I've chatted and in my list in YM now.. and she really find it funny..

Well to me, its embarassing.. never had a crush to a person where I was able to let him know about what I truly feel.. so its like I had a BULLS EYE there.. and confessed to the right person.. :-))

SORRY po.. having crush is different from loving truly a person.. well I love a person.. who doesn't love me.. but he's my good friend.. one of the best I know.. one of the best I have.. but not meant for me.. haaay.. buhay nga naman.. kailan ba darating ang pag-ibig na para sa akin..?

Anyways, Ingat ka palagi Sir Mika.. Thank you! Hope to see you in action soon!