Sweet KC

Finally, I'm writing you one.. just all about you.. you're my number one fan and reader here..:-)) now it seemed am popular..:-)) but only to you.. my beholder..

Sweet KC.. you are a person who is very open and always have time to listen, to give advice, and to help.. a friend.. and more than that.. a special person.. to me.. only that we have twist and complicated life.. that we cannot meet that path yet..to be together.. but one day.. we will do.. :D only time and destiny and God can tell..

I would like to thank you.. for all the time that I have known you and stood here for me.. and gave me inspiration.. to follow my dreams and plans in life.. I like it that you tell me what is your opinion on the good and the bad about my plans in life.. and also you don't hesitate to give or show your support to whatever is my decision over something.. we shared same faith.. we both have compassionate heart.. and we could be perfect in a imperfect time.. yet..

I hope that you will take good care of yourself when I leave.. and I hope that you'll pray for me everyday!:-*

Thank you sweet KC.. help me build my dreams and reach them all.. :-* help me make them possible.. pray for them for me..:D :-* while I do all the work to reach them..:D :-* but most important is.. pray for me to be SAFE.. wherever I may go!:D :-* will miss you.. :-*

the ME..

I was at a mall yesterday..I don't know why.. but I always have the urge to help other people..when they find hard to find something or ask me of my opinion about things they want to buy..strange because I always respond to that call..and I do this..everywhere.. not knowing..I might also be in great danger talking to strangers.. but it made me happy that I was able to help other people in simple ways.. luckily.. these are always good people.. well.. I hope so..:D :-* or am just so accommodating and trust all people? I don't even try to think bad about the person who appear in front of me..what a good heart..hahahha.. its nice to think that anyone can always find true heart in me.. no other agenda in helping them.. and not expecting anything in return.. but just to hear them say THANK YOU.. is enough..:-)

Loving life more..

I'm here again, typing words..

Nothing.. I just feel that I'm blessed by my faith by answering my prayers.. yes.. some of them took years before it came true.. while some of them happened instantly.. One of the things I realized.. if your heart is focused on what you really want and keep on praying on it.. and just let God do His work and He will give it to you.. especially when He thinks its right time for you to have what you prayed for..

I love my life more today..for the reason..that I'm alive and I can find ways how to make my plans in life become reality.. I just hope and pray that I will be safe to the place I will be in the next two years.. Yes, I am afraid..because I do not know a single word in their language.. also their culture.. nor if their faith can accept mine.. Again, I put my life to God.. I hope He will work on me and take care of me wherever I may go..whoever people I am with.. and will still meet in my journey..

I decided to take this job opportunity because I believe.. those people who need me here can live their life without me now.. but they know.. wherever I may be.. they can always count on me.. my love for them will always be there.. and I will keep them with me wherever I may go.. in my heart.. and in my memory..

I am just sad because somehow.. I am missing some people in my life and a single man.. and that person really have a big part of my being.. No.. nothing happened between us that is more than friendship..its just hard to forget someone who is always special to you.. but I hope when I go away from here.. I could learn to forget him and start anew..

I am thankful to all those people who never give up on me.. those people who never stop believing in me.. in my talents, in my skills, in my knowledge, in my principles in life, in my aspirations in life, and more.. my character.. they believe I deserve more.. I deserve best.. but let's just think this way.. my decision in going abroad.. is just a step in having the best.. including that person best for me..

I love you Lord, thank you for everything you have done for me.. I hope You never get tired supporting me..and taking care of me.. and my family and friends.. again, I'm asking You to please take care of me again when away from my family and friends.. Thank you.. I love you..

Thank you for reading.. God bless us all.. kisses :-*

Paalam..Goodbye..

Today.. finally.. I was able to speak to my boss and tell her all my concerns and things that I like to do.. one of them is STOP TEACHING..I love teaching..I love molding young minds..help them create their hopes and dreams and achieve them.. The decision to give up my job..is a hard and tough decision for me..because I'm leaving the place I only trust..all over Manila..and the Philippines.. It is hard because I love that place.. I've learned many things.. met good people.. and strengthened and deepened more my faith.. my ALL BEING as a person.. it is hard because I love the sisters.. but there's a lot of things in my life right now..that nobody can help but only ME.. and I need not only to plan but DO ACTIONS in all those plans.. God help me.. I love you.. I hope that what I'm doing right now is right and I will not regret it one day.. I know that you're the one who put me there..that no matter how I try to avoid that place before they hire me..you still put me in that place and keep me feel safe and all my values and my morals in life.. God please guide me..to my new path.. I hope that things will be okay as I try to take a new direction..

I was crying when I left work today even though it was not my last day at work yet..but just knowing I will be leaving that place I stayed for more than 5years..its hard.. especially that I have a lot of good memories in that place.. good learnings.. good and bad experiences.. but then after that, I told myself too that I have to move on and be strong..its hard though but life has to go on and maybe, this is just a start of unfolding what God has planned for me..or maybe I was just blind to see that? I don't know.. but my eyes feel pain already from crying too much, also, for trying not to cry.. I think it puts air in my frontal lobe..but then I know its just my way of thinking..but it feels like I'm lost today.. but then.. I don't know..just help me pray to find a good job.. most especially.. abroad..but with kind employers..I wish there's someone who can help me here now..I am afraid to fall to some scam agencies or human trafficking syndicates.. I hope that God will always keep me safe and my father and my sister and her family..

Thank you for reading.. Thank you K.. hugs and kisses:-)

IT'S GONNA MAKE SENSE..

I really like this song.. but later I will explain why.. and use also the lyrics in explaining why..:-) Thank you to Michael Learns To Rock...

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LETTING GO..

I am happy that I can finally say that I care less about him.. I think less about him now.. I hope that this will continue..

Thanks for reading K..:D