Lost Soul

Everytime I go for walk or wait for a ride in a street corner.. I think alot of things.. sometimes..I look at people's faces.. different cars and jeepneys that travel from and to in highways.. then I said.. I pity these jeepneys sometimes.. if they have mouth and can speak.. maybe they already complaint from their owners or in their drivers.. and then I also see jeepneys as faithful creation.. they knew their route to take and only one place to go.. and I told myself you are as faithful as these jeepneys only that you are the driver of your own jeepney.. and the difference is that you dont carry passengers but your own baggages.. on that thought I get sad.. coz I dont know how to let go.. even old things and people that I must let go already and face my own life.. and start anew.. its hard for me.. and I envy these jeepneys that they can carry themselves (well that is even they are broken or damage in some parts) but not like me.. when I'm sad or cried.. you can see that in my face.. when I'm bothered.. you can determine that by just looking in my face.. yes.. that's how transparent I am.. I wish I can do something to it and know how to pretend well and wear a mask if necessary.. and the only difference I have with jeepneys is that.. they can't choose their route.. they can search for short-cuts but their end is still the end of their route.. unlike me.. I could be the driver of my own jeepney the difference is I can choose to go where I want or decide on what I want to happen in my life.. I just need to find my destination where I am fit and stay and travel only in one place..and learn to let go and start move on.. and never look back.. I wish I can do this..