THROUGH THE YEARS

TNR

I like to remember how things started but I guess my memory is fading the same as how my memory of you.. together as friends in this unique friendship.. We've been through a lot of fight like lovers but we're not..:-)), we try not to hurt each other's feelings but circumstances that come into our lives seems want to show that we need to fight FORCES OF NATURE..

We try to keep our communication even we're miles away, we email, calling me in my mobile, post cards and mails by snail mail.. now I think things have changed.. I don't know if that's just because of what my brain is telling me or what I'm feeling for the moment..

But did you know that as the time or the duration of knowing you sometimes helped me learn something but sometimes it also mean that I can't have you..

You're there to listen, to care, to understand, to cheer me up.. just like how I am always there when you need help.. in my own little ways to show you I care, I'm listening, I understand you.. and that I'M ALWAYS HERE for you.. then I realize that I'm also falling for you to things that you do.. there's just a problem.. its one way.. and there's things we need to consider.. requirements that somehow I won't be able to give you..and I know everything from the very start.. sometimes, what you do is different from what comes out to your mouth.. I get confused..

Friends here told me to forget you.. but my brain is fighting for you.. you are also my friend.. and when I give to you my friendship.. I didn't asked you for anything in return.. just PURE FRIENDSHIP.. but now.. my heart and brain are in trouble because it's desiring you.. not for fun or fling.. something for lifetime.. and I knew to myself I'm sure about it.. but.. I guess.. I just need to be thankful that we've met.. I had you for a friend..

Through the years of knowing you.. THANK YOU.. for sharing your life as one good friend I am always proud to have and tell everyone that YOU'RE DIFFERENT and RESPECTED me to what I want.. ACCEPTED me to who I am..

I LOVE YOU.. sometimes I want to scream that loud to your face, and since you are MILES AWAY from me, I like to tell the water in Manila Bay that I love someone, can you send my message to him that I TRULY LOVE HIM? but I hope and pray.. this will just end soon.. then I can act NORMAL again to you.. I wish I can go somewhere quiet and don't need to think about you.. but every time I do that.. I FAILED.. especially when you call me and then ask for help..

Now, I need to just pray this will end and pray for you to find that woman you want.. my life won't be the same anymore when you're gone.. I hope I CAN..