Hi!

Hi guys.. its 2009.. still feeling the same.. but then lately doin some stupid things just to stop this feeling for him.. anyways, life's like that..

I miss a lot of people when 2008 finish and 2009 arrive.. realizing that I know I can't have them back and have to start another year without those few good friends I have.. its because they have to move somewhere or work somewhere.. while others are starting to settle down this year..losing more.. friends..

I've started January not so good, I was sick from first of January until the fifth day and start working.. while at work, its very busy and also not very good to start this year.. our computer give up and shut down.. we're still waiting for new computers or new donations..? then I we have this students who is really getting me to my nerve and just.. argh.. I don't want to say anything anymore..

And also, keep thinking why everywhere I go, even in malls, I always see nuns.. I call them my PREMONITION of myself..but I hope its just a coincidence.. coz even when I was with TNR.. I saw a nun! we both saw a nun.. and he knew that I call them my premonition..so funny..

Right now.. I'm just starting to be quiet to TNR.. quiet as in not contacting him in texts.. I am like that.. when I feel I like to be quiet or just have some quiet time.. it will take few days or a week before I start contacting a person or a friend again.. its thinking, discerning.. my evaluating and reflecting process.. on things that are happening to me, to my work, to my family.. what do I want next, what I can do next.. where do I go from here.. what to do next.. where to head or where to turn my next journey.. what stop in my life that brings many things to me, changes or life learnings.. what decisions I need to take or what decisions or what part in my life I was wrong in my decisions? things like that..

I hope to do many things for my family.. but I need only one good opportunity.. but I don't know when it will come to me.. I hope SOON..

Take care of you all.. and I hope I will also be successful in forgetting that feeling I only feel for only one person.. that is TNR.. pray for me..

Hi to Mika! miss to see u po.. I hope to see u play pool here again! I hope to bring my friend TNR.. so that he see and meet you in person.. He knew you're my crush:-) and he knew WHO I LOVE.. my golly.. here i am again.. anyway, take care always Mika! you're one of THE BEST THING that ever happened in 2008! one of the BEST GIFTS I received last year! Take care and congratulations!